Friday, 4 November 2011

1:26am -- ain't hardcore hour.

I can't sleep. I know the time is not too hardcore --- its 7 to 1am.
Hello Nov. 5! Happy Birthday Cousin.

I can taste blood in my mouth, I've been doing a lot of thinking that I constantly bite my tongue every other thought. God has been punishing me, which I totally deserve. In my own little world, the way I see it, everything is on fire. the corner of my room is already charred. my walls are turning grey, I am slowly breaking apart. Like the part in Shutter Island, where Leo embraced Michelle and the room was burning and its turning to ashes. I've becoming the Michelle in there, going pale, slowly breaking.

I really feel that I am so bad. I love my parents so much, and hate them at the same time.
Can I just die?
Thinking of Elly doesn't help. Why would I waste time thinking  about someone who doesn't think of me for a second? Oh I know ---- I love that guy. <3 Sorry. you mad? TROLOL. (funny input. real life: Poker face)

I'm having a quandary. (s* where the hell did I get that word? ---- Intelligent input darling.)
Satan and I seems to be sharing the same cup of Evilness. AM I BAD? what did I do to deserve all of this?
what THIS?
okay I'm broke nigga, and something happened to make it worst.
I'm gonna KILL MYSELF! really @@

how can I get away from this? @@ how?!
I think I am losing it.
Keep holding on Jess. you'll be okay. 
Am I? I wish.

2 comments:

  1. what's keeping you up?
    it's freaking me out man oe. anything the family can help? ;)

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  2. isa akong malaking tanga. @@
    Uhm. i'm having problems with myself.
    you guys have done so much for me, nakakahiya na :')

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