ALMOST :D

There is this guy that I named after a character in 500 days of Summer, He is Summer Finn and automatically that makes me Tom Hansen [HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH :)) ] well, these things happened last year pa -- I am totally over it.

I just had to write this down because it was almost epic and Jethro has to ruin it.
but I ain't mad...

I just got home from a three day retreat and it was so awesome, if only I have no people left behind in this chaotic world, I would have extended my stay there [if only the food they serve was yummy too HAHAHAAHAHAHA.]

Well, our Third Session about Healing of our Heart was the interesting one, we talked about Pains, the hurts we've encountered, the people, everything, after that there was this portion where we have to give candles to someone whom we've hurt or just simply thank them.
I received a lot of thank yous and sorry's and I told my friends I'll say sorry to Summer.

So without hesistation, I took one candle and came up to him.

I said "Sorry for everything'

He gave me this look "Bakit ka nagsosorry?" he knew I was lying.

I answered "Basta sa mga times na inaway kita and stuff"
he kept asking when or where.. so I uttered " Fine, Thank you"

then he added " sa pagmamahal?" he smiled.

It made me laugh, I insisted the "Thank you" and nothing more.

So I left and approached the others, then late on.. 

he called me...

"Hey!" he came to me with a candle then started off saying

"Sorry and Salamat sa --- Look at me first in the face"

I was not looking at him kasi I was loking horrible, we were crying na kasi.

so he continued " Salamt sa pagmamahal, di man yun bisto pero may"

and Ugh. Jethro came saying thank you to him.

I insisted Summer to continue but he started his teasing antics that led me to say Fine, Wag na.

I wrote a letter on that same night, it was part of the activity actually, It was for him. He almost answered the question I wrote in that paper that I chose to burn. [ there is no use in giving it to him, I am over it, I just thought of him for the last time :)]

Someday, I'll tell him the truth. :D Maybe that someday will be this December. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.

PAIN.

I do a lot of things everyday and its making me forget you but
when its time for me to stop, all I do is think of you.

I keep my thoughts about him everyday because I know my friends are tired of hearing his name.
there are things I'd like him to know, I just don't know how to say it.
Until now it makes me wonder...
why did it have to stop? what did I do?
My heart just fell.

I try to convince myself its okay but the truth is -- its not.

I love him and that's just about everything.

All i can do is just love him from a distance.. I can do that, I've been doing that --- always.

I've always wished I can be with you.

072711 ♥

Whitney Houston Cece Winans - Count On Me
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when it comes to friends ---- I am willing to do everything even if it meant hurting myself.

nakakatawa na nakaktouch yung pangyayari kanina sa room. yung simpleng usapan tungkol sa leadership sa isang organization nauwi sa ibang bagay -- PAGKAKAIBIGAN. siguro masyado na kameng masaya at kinakailangan na naming umiyak. 

yung malungkot lang yung isa tapos lahat apektado. simpleng salita na ang intensyon ay magbigay ng opinion naging rason para maungkat yung damdamin talaga namin sa isa't isa. parang nasa isang linya kame ng kuryente, kumbaga one way circuit lang kame. akalain mo, para sa organization naman yun dapat pero yung naisip naming organization is yung friendship namin.

to be honest, sa kanila ko 'to naranasan. 

naiyak man siguro ako dati pero dahil drama talaga yun, pero yung seryosong topic? as in HRD? mapupunta sa damdaming pangkaibigan? iba yun bro. 

we're so contagious then. nagmukha kameng selfish nun kasi epmhasize yung kameng 12 lang. 

di mo naman kame masisisi, kasi kame lang naman talaga yun. :))

UNIQUE kame. Di kame peke. Pranka? oo naman.

I want US to last.

I want na kame pa ring lahat -- through thick and thin.

hanggang magkaroon na kame ng sariling Moogs Van.

hanggang maging RGC's kame.

hanggang magkaroon na kame ng sariling school namin LIKE STARS ON EARTH ACADEMY.

to those I love so much... yung 11 na 'to.

Guys, you may keep on saying in times of troubles na no one would understand.. believe me, I can always keep up with you. kahit anong problema yan, kung ako ang sasabihan mo, di ko kayo bibitawan even if it meant killing myself. I can give up my life for you guys (that goes to my family as well)...
my happiness and everything -- I'd rather be in pain than seeing all of you sad. 

true yan. Love you so much -- you know who you are :')

dreaming in my dream ♥

dream a little dream of me....

maybe its just the thing I have for you...

I had a weird dream --- weird meant something good to me because you where there.

the entire time you were my company..

I wish I can be as close as what my series of pleasing images have presented to me..

minus the not-so-nice dialogues.

first I was with him, we were like bestfriends. we talk so close, pinching each others cheeks and hugging. 

then my other friends mom showed up (in my dream that was his mother) she talked like it was not something serious.. she said he has leukemia. @@ then I thought that should be me not him.

then I woke up because RD was crying.. it was probably 3am. I know that kind of dawn.

I slept.. there was a slight feeling of regret that I woke up. @@

then later on I was in my dreams again & he was there.. it made me smile.

we were just talking.. and still hugging. 

its like I was his girlfriend but he never mentioned like we have labels there.

I was just his closest friend.

we went outside hand in hand and told him that I dreamt about him and the woman (who was my other friends mom) told me you had Leukemia.

he saw how worried I was and he placed his hand on my cheek and told me...

"It was just a dream" 

he said it like he will never leave me and

he gave me the smile I love.

we went back still hand in hand... 

we said our goodbyes (which I totally hate -- why did I let it happen, we were suppose to be together the entire dreaaaaam @@)

and I saw my classmates, we laugh and I got teased. Epic.

that was all..

I just thought about what the Reader's Digest have said about the person you see in your dreams.

R'sD said that these people wants to see you.

so does that mean he wants to see me today? :)

Awww.

Or not.

it all ends.

we are all the 90's kids. we are the Harry Potter Generation.
we have the most magical childhood ever.

and

I solemnly swear to carry with me this story for the rest of my life.

I am a witch. :)

take me away... please?

Right now the only thing I know is that I love you.

tapos biglang ganito....

LOCK YOURSELF IN THE CAR AND CRY WITH SILLY LOVE SONGS.
hahahahahahaha :')

put your records on and ignore the world [which is HIM ] >:)

di na talagang maiwasan na mabaliw ka sa kakaisip nang mga bagay-bagay...
hindi lang naman puros pagsusulit o konsepto sa project yung nanggugulo eh sa ating isipan..yung matindi diyan ay yung namuong pagtingin sa taong nagbigay rin na feeling sayo...


nakakinis nga eh. nagbigay siya ng feeling tapos kung kailan ikaw naman ay nahuhulog na bigla lang niyang babawiin ang lahat. siguro nga muntanga ka na para umasa nang ganun kabilis -- pero kasalanan ba yun? nagmahal ka lang naman di ba?

                                                                          TENGENE!
isang paraan ang nahanap ko para mawala yung sakit -- wag kang makinig ng lovesongs kung sinasampal sa mukha mo yung lyrics nun. mahihirapan ka lang. ako sayo makinig ka ng disco music, yung mapapsayaw ka, yung matutuwa ka, kahit muntanga ka na sa kakasayaw at least puros tuwa ang laman nun at hindi sakit ^___________^

                                                          Let's do the dougie moves! >__<


minsan gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na una pa lang interesado naman talaga ako sa kanya inunahan niya lang ako dahil siya ang may kagustuhang makilala ako... ewan ko ba kung saang lupalop ng daigdig niya napulot ang tapang para kausapin ako nun di man sa personal pero malaking bagay na yun dahil nga -----
GUSTO KO SIYA.


sa ngayon kausapin mo na lang si Kimpoy Feliciano nang makalimutan mo siya :)

                                                      isang kindat babe! *Bang


masaya naman ako eh... lagi :)))