"I went back and realized it was a bad idea..."
It was raining, and I am almost halfway to my home when I had the urge to go back...
"..we saw him..." they told me and it kept me wanting to run just to see him too...
out of nowhere I told the taxi driver to drive me back there..
as the driver made his turn with annoyance, I looked out the window as raindrops grew stronger..
"this is not right, this is not right, this is a bad idea but I want to see you"
I told myself.
For a moment, I felt the ride was so slow and i still have time to think of what I'll do if he finds me alone.
I shook my head and took a deep breath..
this is a chance; another chance I mean.
I know this is so wrong; it's like I am running after him but who cares? no one knows why I am doing this anyway..
the cab hit the break ...
my heart stopped.. I am here. I closed my eyes and swore to the heavens...
"just now.. please?" I begged.
I ignored the heavy rain and made the run.
I reached the empty hall..
I smiled.
I know he is at the right wing of the building, with his friends sitting outside the corridor of their Photography Center.
I fixed myself and started to walk..
hoping he'll see me alone and decides to accompany me.
I kept that happy face and passed through the isle of the right wing..
I felt there some people talking...
So I made a glance and continued walking..
I was frowning..
"he's not there"
it felt like I was Tom Hansen and everything turned grey to white..
I was abashed by my own idea..
I should've not done this..
I've just hurt myself again.
I returned soaked in the cab with disappointment.
I think the universe is trying to tell me something.. I have just placed it under my bed because I"ve always believed in HOPE.
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Jerry Roswell
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