Imaginary World...

Alice and I were just enjoying our afternoon in our favorite spot in school

laughing, singing old songs from the 90's and remembering some significant events last year 2010, so friendship stuff when Liam came appearing in the crowd with his freaky friends; He looked in our way and he gave the smile I totally love and waved.

of course it was for me, so I waved back with a smile.

Alice gave me a teasing look.

"What?" I smiled.

"you're into him" she pushed me playfully.

"who said I was not?" I laughed.

Boy talk got into our conversation. There was nothing much to talk about Liam.

He was just some new guy; some guy who asked for my number, some guy who gave me the feeling, some guy who breaks my heart day by day; some guy that I still love to love and hate.

"But I don't think he's into me" I said staring at Liam who was playing frisbee on the field.

"Maybe he's just shy around you" Alice insisted, telling me her own rationalizations about his acts...
her words faded as I wandered, then someone starred there --- Keith.

"You know what? I could really sing Taylor Swift's Go Back to December now" I interrupted.

Alice stopped and raised her eyebrow.

I laughed again and took the Cookies on my bag.

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"I want to have moments with Liam just like I had with Keith, especially that Epic December" I said nibbling the cookie.

"Why? What happened?" she replied like she was never there.

Memories were vivid as I told Alice every details of it from the Bonfire trip to that Christmas eve fest.

"Maybe he did like me, he just didn't wanna do it,because he was forever chained with that psycho girlfriend of his" I said in dismay.

"I also think he was in love with you--- he just ignored that feeling because if he gave in, there's no turning back, he's all yours..." Alice said like Keith was Savanna in Dear John [the answering phone thingie >__<] .

"...he was just good in keeping that facade of I-Don't-Give-A-Shit" she crossed her arms.

I was speechless for a second. He gave me so much things to remember, no moments have beat that yet, it was epic, so epic.

"What if he told you the truth? what if he said 'Don't tell me I didn't try! --- I did' with tears falling from his little eyes" Alice told me with gestures of where is North & South.

"or what if he left me crying, because he told me everything was nothing, it was all a show, a joke" I added, realizing I haven't eaten half of the cookie.

"but the truth is when he turned back, he was disappointed at himself because he was not brave enough to fight for what he feels for me" I said trying to picture the scene on my mind, it was raining.

"And yea like he went back again then he hugged you so tight and told you how much he loved you! Ugh. freakin' imaginations! that is so movie scene" Alice blurted out laughing.

I giggled but there was a little twinge inside me, it reminded me how special he was to me -- before.

I breathe, thanking him for the memories; the good ones of course. I was lucky.

The thing here is that I'm over him. I can always go back talking the same old moments but the special feeling we call Love is all gone and it is already taken by someone new ---- and yea, this is another unrequited love.